Post by LittleNightSide (Darklilone) on Dec 21, 2014 1:50:06 GMT 1
Hello everyone. I am known as darklilone, littlenightside or Amelia Nightside depending on where you may have seen me around (many of you from the Vampire.nu - Realm of Darkness message boards would remember me as darklilone).
I have been awakening as a Therian/Otherkin and (non-kin) Vampire since roughly the age of 13 or 14 (with a few subtle nudges from life before then). I have been aware of my Identity and active, officially, in the Online Communities since about the age of 16, I am now 24. The last few years or so I have spent majorly, if not exclusively, in the Facebook communities. I regret that I've more or less neglected all other websites and accounts and now that Facebook seems to have a thing against Nightside names and alternative identities, I find myself returning to Off-Facebook sites like this one.
I identify as female physically and mostly in mind. I am romantically & sexually attracted to men, but feel a romantic or some other form of attraction to women on occasion. I also have a rare [romantic?] affinity for my Therio/Kintypes but would never, in human body, act on such feelings.
I believe I am empathic but over the years have pretty much ignored and shut down that (perhaps overly shielded). I have had, and still to this day, a share of un-explainable and potentially paranormal experiences. I tend to approach all aspects of Spiritual and non/meta-physical with agnosticism. I am not religious but am spiritual. My religious background however includes branches of Christianity as a base/root/how I was brought up, but my views and general demeanor seem to reflect Pagan and Agnostic tendencies or leanings. I find appeal in most Theistic and Spiritual paths, including those of the Left Hand.
I believe my Identity to root equally psychologically as well as spiritually. I am generally open minded to all concepts and beliefs, but am not beyond questioning and using my own understandings to contest and further understand such concepts, speculations and beliefs of others. I always try to treat others the way I wish to be treated, or at least I don't treat people in ways that I can not handle myself. Therefore I am open to questions of any sort, so long as they are respectful and thoughtful.
I identify as a wolf and clado-feline Therian. I identify as having a set of phantom wings unrelated to these types of unknown purpose and origin. I also identify as a non-Kin Vampire, specifically a Pranic (Energy/Psy/Psi/ et. al.) Vampire which simply means that I identify an extra need to take in non-physical energies in order to help maintain my overall health and well being alongside my other basic human/animal needs..
During the most hectic (?) portions of my awakening I considered many possible labels for my identity, such as griffins (or similarly Chimeric creatures), polymorphs (I had pretty frequent and widely varied cameo shifts, and though they've settled for the most part, I still get them from time to time), and various Fae/Demonic Canids. For this reason, I sometimes will still associate with, and express an interest if not a strong soft spot for these identities and creatures. I generally relate/identify with them, not so much as them, unless time and further self exploration proves to show me otherwise.
Though I speculate the origin of my phantom wings, they do not cause me an as-strong affinity or similar towards angels or other winged creatures (though I certainly find most imagery of angels to be appealing, I don't feel that I am an angel of any fashion). It's not so much the creature that I relate with, nor as, but just the state of having wings.
I did have an account here in the past but likely do not have access to it, if it still exists at all. If admins happen to notice this, I do consent to deletion of the old account.
I have been awakening as a Therian/Otherkin and (non-kin) Vampire since roughly the age of 13 or 14 (with a few subtle nudges from life before then). I have been aware of my Identity and active, officially, in the Online Communities since about the age of 16, I am now 24. The last few years or so I have spent majorly, if not exclusively, in the Facebook communities. I regret that I've more or less neglected all other websites and accounts and now that Facebook seems to have a thing against Nightside names and alternative identities, I find myself returning to Off-Facebook sites like this one.
I identify as female physically and mostly in mind. I am romantically & sexually attracted to men, but feel a romantic or some other form of attraction to women on occasion. I also have a rare [romantic?] affinity for my Therio/Kintypes but would never, in human body, act on such feelings.
I believe I am empathic but over the years have pretty much ignored and shut down that (perhaps overly shielded). I have had, and still to this day, a share of un-explainable and potentially paranormal experiences. I tend to approach all aspects of Spiritual and non/meta-physical with agnosticism. I am not religious but am spiritual. My religious background however includes branches of Christianity as a base/root/how I was brought up, but my views and general demeanor seem to reflect Pagan and Agnostic tendencies or leanings. I find appeal in most Theistic and Spiritual paths, including those of the Left Hand.
I believe my Identity to root equally psychologically as well as spiritually. I am generally open minded to all concepts and beliefs, but am not beyond questioning and using my own understandings to contest and further understand such concepts, speculations and beliefs of others. I always try to treat others the way I wish to be treated, or at least I don't treat people in ways that I can not handle myself. Therefore I am open to questions of any sort, so long as they are respectful and thoughtful.
I identify as a wolf and clado-feline Therian. I identify as having a set of phantom wings unrelated to these types of unknown purpose and origin. I also identify as a non-Kin Vampire, specifically a Pranic (Energy/Psy/Psi/ et. al.) Vampire which simply means that I identify an extra need to take in non-physical energies in order to help maintain my overall health and well being alongside my other basic human/animal needs..
During the most hectic (?) portions of my awakening I considered many possible labels for my identity, such as griffins (or similarly Chimeric creatures), polymorphs (I had pretty frequent and widely varied cameo shifts, and though they've settled for the most part, I still get them from time to time), and various Fae/Demonic Canids. For this reason, I sometimes will still associate with, and express an interest if not a strong soft spot for these identities and creatures. I generally relate/identify with them, not so much as them, unless time and further self exploration proves to show me otherwise.
Though I speculate the origin of my phantom wings, they do not cause me an as-strong affinity or similar towards angels or other winged creatures (though I certainly find most imagery of angels to be appealing, I don't feel that I am an angel of any fashion). It's not so much the creature that I relate with, nor as, but just the state of having wings.
I did have an account here in the past but likely do not have access to it, if it still exists at all. If admins happen to notice this, I do consent to deletion of the old account.